There’s an idiom I used to bask in the glory of saying. “This is where the rubber meets the road.” It was like a testament to everything I felt qualified and bound to do. But now, my wheels are turning, and the rubber feels rough against the pavement to which I’m traveling. This is my moment of truth where all that I’ve said is being put to the test.
There are theories I’ve suggested bringing me to roads I’ve traveled, which at one point were nothing shy of terrifying. But for some reason, this moment all feels so different to me. “This is where the rubber meets the road.” I find myself repeating. How many times have I questioned my capabilities, and will this be the point I break? Somethings got to give to the constant question of how good I am really.
I’m trying to write honestly without giving too much away. Because I have to believe I’m not the only one who’s ever felt this way, this feeling of inadequacy has stopped me barely yet deceitfully, I think, nonetheless. Have I taken more stock in the opinions of others or my views? Even with a knowing that what often prevails is the tokens of my accord.
I guess if I’m honest, it’s a question I’m still sifting through in my variations of “progress.” I’d love to say I’ve figured it all out, that I’ve double down on my self-confidence and thoughts of knowing. But somehow, even that feels like a misstep. I’m starting to think that maybe what I need is to write my acceptance letter, which I may never receive from any institution, community, or individual, because what I, and maybe what we all need first, is a form of self-acceptance.
So, to whom it may concern,
It is with great pleasure that I write to inform you that you have been well received—admitted for your efforts and obligations to decency. Your time spent in anxious waiting was worth what I can only assume feels now like a conscious fate. I have to believe that all you’ve undergone has prepared you perfectly for this moment. The moment where “the rubber meets the road,” I’m happy to say your tires seem to fit even quiescently upon on this track, and I can’t wait to see how it directs you moving forward.
Additionally, we accept you on the terms and conditions to arrive as you are, which have been put forth by the actions you’ve taken in uncertain moments such as these. My wish is to immediately put these terms into effect, for I’ve seen the impact of someone to this degree abundantly and hope you will continue to distinguish the same. Although you’ve already achieved success and fulfillment in the life you’ve chosen to lead, there are a few steps I’d like you to complete to become officially enrolled in this part of your life moving forward.
- Review the ideals you have enclosed within you up until this point.
- Establish what to keep and areas you would like to expand upon moving forward.
- Finalize any loose restraints from the past, present, and future that are keeping you from becoming exactly who it is you want to be.
I look forward to having you alongside me on the upcoming roads we are bound to meet. Should you have any questions or self-confinements moving forward, please don’t hesitate to reach out to me. For it will be this recognition and letter of approval that will serve as what you need in moments of disbelief.
Yours truly from the highest degree,
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